Last day of school

So today was the kid's last day of school. I have been dreading it for lots of reasons...
1. I will have to entertain every single day
2. I won't get a break
3. It makes me so sad

I don't know why by it makes me so sad when this day comes. It started with Cole and now I have two kids to be sad about. This school year, however marked a different importance and a different meaning. This school year was Chloe's first year to be in school. She did amazing! She thrived, grew in every way and made her very first friends. Her teachers were so sweet and loving. I am so sad that this year has come and gone. It started with my baby who was barely 1 year old, who couldn't walk or talk and ended with a little girl who runs, dances and talks my head off. She has become such a beautiful little soul who I adore more than words and I am thankful that her teachers taught her and cared for her this year.

For Cole, this year was very different and scary at first. He was old enough to understand that everything in his life was new. We had just barely moved to Midland, were living with my parents before finding a house, and he didn't have a single friend. Everything familiar in his life was gone and he was forced to start over. He did so well! He found some of his very best friends this year. These friends were the first people in his life that he had made on his own without his Momma forcing it upon him. All of his friends from the past 3 years had been b/c I was friends with their Moms. Cole has become so smart and learned so much at Hillander. His teacher was so caring and I always knew that she would take care of him. He learned how to write this year, among many other things and I just feel like he has turned into such a big boy. My baby turned 4 this school year and played his very first sport... t-ball. What fun that was and what fun we have to look forward to.

I think I am sad b/c my little one's lives are flashing before my eyes. I want them to grow into the beautiful people that God has made them to be but sometimes I wish that I could just freeze time. So instead of being sad, I think I'll settle for being grateful. I am so blessed to have been given the opportunity to be the Mommy to the two most important little people in my life. Cole and Chloe, you will always be my little ones. I will love you and cheer for you every step of the way during your journeys through life.

Mother's Day

My sweet Cole... words can't express what you have brought to my life. I never knew what loving so much it hurts meant until you were born. You have taught me about patience, true thankfulness to our Lord for the wonderful gift that you are and about the true meaning of family. You started our family as our first child and will always be my very special baby. At age 4, you have finally left the horrible 3's and into the world of being a big boy. You still have your moments, but overall... you are just a darling little boy. You say the funniest things so out of the blue and make me laugh out loud. You are your sister's hero and I think this is your most important role. She drives you crazy so much of the time, but the part of you that loves her so unconditionally really shines through. You take up for her, teach her so many leasons and are her very best friend. I can not thank you enough for the loving big brother you are to her. It is the most rewarding and beautiful thing to witness as a Mommy. You are loud, rowdy, sweet and sincere at the same time. You are everything that I ever wanted in a little boy and then some. So on this Mother's Day, I thank you for being my baby and I thank God for the gift he has given me. I love and adore you always!

My Chloe girl - I can't believe that you are 23 months old today. Today marks the last time I count how many months you are b/c on June 8th you will be 2 years old! Big girl! The past 23 months have been filled with such sweetness from you, my love. You have brought a new peace and gentleness to our family. You are the funniest little thing. You dance and shake your little bootie to any music. You worship Mickey and Minnie Mouse and have a new found love for Elmo aka... Melmo. You are talking so much these days and your sweet little words just melt my heart. I love watching you carry your purse around the house along with your baby dolls. You are one girly girl, but you aren't afraid to get dirty outside with your bubba. Cole is your hero. You watch his every move and will do anything he tells you to do. It is so sweet to see the relationship that has formed between the two of you. Chloe girl, you have touched my life in so many ways. I look forward to our relationship as Mother and Daughter and how it will grow every year, every day. Thank you for being my baby girl. Kisses to you my sweet thing!

I wanted to also share a little something that I thought was so sweet...

Children are like kites. You spend a lifetime trying to get them off the ground. You run with them until you're both breathless - they crash - you add a longer tail - they hit the rooftop - you pluck them out of the spout - you patch and comfort, adjust and teach. You watch them lifted by the wind and assure them that someday they'll fly! ... Finally they are airborne, but they need more string and you keep letting out and with each twist of the ball of twine, there is a sadness that goes with the joy because the kite becomes more distant and somehow you know that it won't be long before that beautiful creature will nap the life line that bound you together and soar as it was meant to soar - free and alone.

Thank you, Lord for the gift of being a Momma to my sweet babies. I pray that you will hold my hand as I teach them to fly and one day soar as they were meant to soar.